Well, considering all that's going on right now I've decided to kind of "restart" my deviantArt life.
besides me hopefully drawing more, that also means i basically unwatched/unfriended a majority of people i knew here on deviantArt. Now as fucked up as that probably sounds, it isn't out of any hurtful mindset. Now most of the people I was friends with on deviant art i've known since my original account in middle school. I cherish the memories I've made with them, and hopefully one day we can still be friends... but so much has changed since then.
I can't convince myself to still call these people "my friends" when i don't talk to them, and they've moved on. Especially since i don't even go out of my way to encourage most of their work, hell some out right left years ago! Plus my times with said friends were a double edged sword for my life on Deviant art.
I never learned the majority of how the site worked, all we ever did was Roleplay(even if they were fun), and i just sort of banked on my friends being the ones to enjoy my work. my actions were my actions yeah, but these things reinforced that. I never really made myself a member of DeviantArt's community, and it's only been in recent years that i GAVE A DAMN about learning the career side of being an artist. Both things I never even considered when I was younger. Really i just have to wipe that slate clean so I can just move forward and actually do some freaking Art.
Really this is just one part of me attempting to become more apart of the dA community (since really, this is the only "Youtube" for artists... so yeah, might aswell try to be more involved in this.)
This doesn't mean i won't be making friends here on dA though, far from it. im just simply looking to move forward and have more experiences here. In the end i'll meet a lot of people here (and currently still meet alot of people) i just need prioritize things both here AND in real life, other wise i'll end up not caring.
so yeah, i'll startdrawing more stuff soon (will probably unjoin some groups, delete stuff, and just try to do more) and i'll be zipping around the community more. Can't really get anywhere if i just do nothing.
Listening to: video game music
Watching: random things